My heart is racing; I can feel my hands getting clammy as a lump forms in my throat and a tear slips down my face.
Being a single mom is never an easy job. I did not wake up one day and decide this is what I’ve always want it or dreamt of. I never imagined that I would be doing this on my own, that I would cry myself to sleep feeling hopeless and like my best is not enough.
I thought that after doing this on my own for almost 5 years that it would have gotten easier but instead I feel like it just keeps getting harder. I feel weak, I feel anxious and like I can’t breathe.
Today I feel defeated, drained, and tired. As I look at my sleeping child I get the strength to take a deep breath and remind myself that today is just a bad day. Tomorrow will always come and bring a new day with it. Tomorrow will be different, tomorrow will be better.
Here is a little insight — we all struggle with mental health and we can look like we have everything together but be falling apart inside. We all have our demons that we struggle to overcome but just know tomorrow is a new day.
I will leave you with this bible verse:
The pain that you’ve been feeling, can’t compare to the joy that is coming. Roman 8:18